ErzaStacojiu

If I shut my eyes And wish sometimes Not to wake tomorrow, Will you still love This thing that is me? Will you lay your lips Upon my brow, Tell me you love me, Though I know not how? If I break today Want eternal peace tonight When I don't have the Strength to fight, Will you be horrified By the sight of this Ruby red trail and glint of steel? If I told you tonight, I want to surrender, Live in my dreams Instead of this place Would you condemn me? I am lost I am frozen I am willing to lay My head to rest, Give into the dark temptations Slithering around inside my head.

Chaos Dark swirling Raging inside my skin Feelings like fireworks With no sky to explode within Pain of impact as they Detonate inside my bones No reins no control Just the pain Of the release and hold. Will it cease if I slide This blade across my skin? How do I rid the want To cut out all the darkness Trapped inside my veins? How do I stop this Whirling sickness From ravaging my heart? It's always there Creeping like a vine Like an immortal parasite That whispers in my mind That maybe it'd be easier If my head wasn't such A fucked up place. That maybe I'd love me If I could just make Peace with this beast That maybe someone Would love me If I could love this mind That maybe I'm just Not equipped for life.

The moon is high But my heart is low Filling up with chemicals, Gasping for breath, Fists clenched tight, Screaming as this dark Strangles my fight. Moon is so high But oh I'm so low, Drowning in the chemicals, Got to many feelings I can't let go, Not matter how I run I'm imploding oh I'm loathing Everything inside of me. Terrified of my mind, Emotions hitting like lightning, I'm overflowing Pain is swirling, There's that razor on the shelf, A sirens call to let it All bleed out, Wings have been torn, I'm trembling and screaming Under hot liquid tears. The moon is so high But my heart is so low Crying out for you But I am all alone, I've gotta let go of us From the past, It was a picture that Just wouldn't last. I'm throwing myself overboard, Struggling with this Monster inside my brain, And these feelings of pain. The moon is so high, But my heart is so low, Filling up with chemicals, Gasping for breath, Fists clenched tight, Screaming out as this dark Strangles my fight.

Hey guys. I am so honored that even though I have been so inactive over the last few years people still add stuff of mine. Thank you so very much! I know I have been gone a long time but I have some writing pieces that I have recently written. this last year has been a hard one for me and my writing definitley reflects that. anyway thanks for reading! please leave comments because i love them! I'm wretched, I'm lonely, Now that you're gone I'm just only, Smiling with a Gossamer thin veil Pretending to play strong. I hold it through the weather, Tsunamis without your sweater, When you look at me I'm devoured I look at me It's bitter to swallow, I'm a sinking ship Trying to prove I am still worthy of you. I've only succeeded In showing you I am Ugly and defeated, Using you like a drug. Oh I am wretched, Oh I am lonely, Now I'm just only Trying to breathe Through the waters That are pulling me under. It's not enough that you forgive This monster in me, Not enough that you believe If

Momma’s crying in the car, Daddy’s a rollin’ in thunderstorm, I’m a thousand miles away, As brother, oh brother, Is drinking his life away. Momma’s heart is sinking further, Daddy’s yelling cuz brother Is breakin' mommas heart, Brother is gripping that whiskey bottle, Ripping everything good apart. I’m that little girl again, Helpless as can be, Cryin’ in the corner Music so loud, Drown out all the sounds, Watching all these breaking hearts. Brother don’t wanna hear it, Oh no, he don’t wanna talk, Momma says he’s gonna die, Nothing she can do but let him walk, Daddy is hurtin’ but has gotta stay strong, Waiting for that brother to fall apart. Trying to be the daughter of the year To bring momma some cheer, To chase away her fear, While dear old brother is chugging down That bottle of rubbing alcohol. Trying to fight my way To loving myself, Do some good for all this hurt, Healing from these old fresh scars Rubbin' off the dirt. Momma’s crying in the car Daddy's a rollin’ in